Artsy Times

I've been taking things slow the past week. This has allowed Me to relax a bit more and enjoy Myself, but I really need to get back to the grind. Above is Dean's great big cock, for your pleasure. This pic was snapped during a hot bondage scene at his place when I went to drop off his videos. I get distracted, what can I say.

Here is a kick ass picture of another scene I did with Echo, of Echo's Fire, just a couple days ago. He wanted to push his needle tolerance a bit (I remember it being low), and I figured it would make a nice visual to have his website's name on him. We've been chatting more these days, and had touched on the idea of doing a few "real" pictures together. So that may happen once I have a more regular flow of C4S content, as I'm still scattered between three computers and two hard drives. Hopefully though, I will be sorting through all that stuff tomorrow (if I'm lucky, with a jockstrap-clad and collared boy at My feet helping Me out... you know who you are).

I recently met photographer Mario Oria who, having seen My suspension at Asylum 13, asked Me to model for a rope shoot. That will most likely be happening on Thursday, and I am very excited. I find him to be a most talented photographer, as evidenced by the awesome incidental picture he took of Me last Asylum 13, which I share with you here:

I really can't wait for Thursday, as I am usually cursed with not having a great connection with professional photographers. Ashley Savage, for example, is a camera god, and one of the only people to capture Me well while remaining honest. I miss you much, Ashley, and I wish we had had more time to work together! I was really surprised to see that a simple "incidental" photo like the one above could turn out so well, so I'm pretty confident these photos will rock.

That's about it, really. My branding is healing up quite nicely, and should be fully healed in about two more weeks. In a couple months, I may go over it with a cautery pen again to make the scar more prominent, depending on the fade. Here it is after two weeks:

Not bad, huh? I'm actually very happy with how it has been healing. Even if it turns out light, the lines are well-defined and even. So hooray!

Final two things... first, I have another review. It's a bit choppily written, but it is a sweet thought from Cockhole, who has been travelling the past week or two and misses Me greatly. Look, kind words:

My name is [redacted] and this is the first time I have ever written a review. I have been with Sir Brian a few times. My first experience with sounding was with him it was was most exciting time I had. Another thing that has happened: I am now into ass play, which I would never allow anyone to do. Sir Brian had a way of doing this to me which has put me into a place I have never been. I have never had someone take control of me the way he does. I cannot wait for a session. I will not, and I mean not, see another one because they could never get me to the place that Sir Brian gets me too. Cannot wait to be worked over next week.

Hmmmm... he should be rewarded for that when he comes see Me this weekend... Finally, the little French slut Mika has been feeling lonely and trying to make Me smile by sending Me some pictures. To close this post off, dear reader, all I will say is that I was quite pleased when I found this in My Inbox one morning. Wouldn't you be?

Asylum 13, Aviary, and Progress on Pr0n!

All is quiet. Well, not really, but I am already way to talky. So I'll attempt to keep this post shorter than the unabridged version of Moby Dick.

Asylum 13, as usual, an absolute delight. Here are some recent pictures as well as a new video on YouTube that I can't be bothered to embed:

 

On left, getting some drinks into the birthday girl. On right, upside down flying with Arwen.

Katts is a sexy pony... who wants to see him get beaten?

Speaking of YouTube, have you seen My account lately? You might have missed the recent additions to it of a short clip of My brand being done as well as another shortie of Me goofing off while cleaning dildos and buttplugs. I am trying to dispel this nasty rumor that I don't have a sense of humor. I do have a sense of humor, it just tends to be at the expense of others.

        xHamster has finally approved Me as a content producer, so please update your bookmarks from My old xTube account to this new xHamster account, which I will be filling in these next few days. I have also update most of the website to reflect both My new video sites. Any other Studio wanting to do a banner exchange can do so by e-mailing Me their banner and taking one off My site. If you'd rather the banner link feature primarily My Studio as opposed to My general site, just save this one instead (be sure to save the full sized version):

So all the stuff I have been stressing about has been slowly coming together. Perhaps I need not be so impatient. You know what I need? I back massage and a proper drink. Any takers? I've been a busy recluse, perhaps I will go to the Bike Stop a couple of times this week.

Recently, I have come across exceptional service. For example, I had a wondrous time at the Aviary last Saturday with Jynx. I had known and played with him before, but it's only lately that I've taken particular interest. I find him to be quite the adept when it comes to service, and I was quite glad to have him with Me for the evening. He keeps a smile on My face. As one can see by this picture, we had a pretty intense scene together involving claws, cups, and a variety of corporal implements.

As usual, I have to remind some people that the s-types I play on a personal level with all have a strong masochistic streak, and a high tolerance for what I can dish out. Clearly I have a lower range I can play in, and I don't expect newcomers or non-masochists to be able to handle this type of play. But you are reading My blog, which is about My day-to-day life and play. I don't always pull out a camera in session, so a lot of what you will see here includes some of My more intense personal scenes. If you find that My is play batshit insane, you can opt for something a little less "shocking." I am not particularly extreme.

        In fact, I had what one would consider a much tamer scene the very next night with a good friend, Echo of Echo's Fire. We had a great time with some bondage, breath control, light knife play, and wax. I took an incidental picture or two, and since he's quite a lovely-bodied boy, I figure I'd share. Pretty things should be displayed, Methinks. I just have a strange concept of them sometimes! And so I leave you with a pic of this pretty thing, and I think we can both agree on that.

My Clips4Sale Studio is Open!

        It is with no pride or joy that I announce that My Clips4Sale store is open. Please direct your shiny browsers to Carnaval Décadent, My brand spanking new page of perversions.

        As I had mentioned before here, on other networks, and live, the opening of this page was supposed to be a BIG deal for Me. I was going to bombard the web with preview videos, shake things up on social networks, blah blah blah... However, dealing with many of these sites has been a complete nightmare, to such an extent that I feel no happiness at having completed it, and am no longer interested in the fanfare.

        Clips4Sale is a ridiculously simple service to use, but sometimes lacks a bit of honesty when it comes to answering questions directly. Little things I wish I had known before putting Myself out there. But C4S has been great as a server. My major issue these past few days has been with xTube. After uploading all of My preview clips onto My xTube page, My account was shut down without warning or explanation (hmm, sounds like Tumblr to Me). After hounding them like an animal, I finally got an answer as to why. I quote:

"You are not allowed to circulate external URLs anywhere on this site. Although Xtube does provide free content for our users, Xtube is not a free advertising platform for competitors' websites. 

If you'd like to reinstate your account then please read and agree to comply to the terms of use of the site."

        I find that to be incredibly humorous, seeing how xTube is mostly comprised of advertisement and preview videos for major porn companies, all which link out to other websites. That, and the fact that their Terms of Use, which I have read carefully, do not openly mention such a rule, but leave it purposefully unclear. I do not have the time to fight or to argue with them, and so, I have sent them a letter asking them to please remove My account, as I have no interest in working with a company that favors the big producers over independent pornographers.

        I have sent a message to xHamster, who not only support independent producers, but also have an affiliates program. They have not gotten back to Me yet. Hopefully they will do so soon enough.

        Until then, I invite you to check out the folder on My Google Drive, and download any preview video you want. Spread them, send them, share them, upload them... I really do not care. Whenever I have them on a real porn server, I will announce it.

        The Gizmo card restriction should be lifted in a week or two. If you are so inclined to purchase any clips, I would appreciate if you did so after the fact, as Gizmo is notoriously slow. Thanks.

Still waiting. Branding, anyone?

        So... all the paperwork has been through, but I have not been contacted Me to approve or deny My Clips4Sale Studio. The documents are what they asked, so I did what I was asked and sent the stuff in. I am not the Powers That Be (though I know a couple of people who think so), so now, I suppose I have to just wait. That's what I get for being impatient. Unfortunately, you have to wait as well.

        So I got branded today instead.

        This Arabic text branded above My heart reads "Bi-la kaifa" in Classical. The phrase pertains to a theological problem in Islam in reference to God's anthropomorphism in the Qu'ran (the link's TL;DR: if the Qu'ran is absolute truth and God is incorporeal, what does that say for the passages about "the hand of God" or "the face of God?" Well, nothing, because we're not supposed to ask that... that's the idea).

        Due to several events in My personal life, as well as changing views on the environment around Me, I considered this tattoo in summer of last year, after deciding to delay My other design, a stylized Geiger xenomorph. I am not going to write a damn thesis on why I specifically chose this, but I will tell you that I first heard it in Frank Herbert's "Dune," one of My favorite sci-fi novels in the world (to which I own the encyclopedia, because I'm so hardocre and badass), where it presents the reader who know it's meaning with a bunch of interesting questions. In short, go reread it.

        Failing to get it done when I originally wanted to, I hadn't any set plans to do it, but I knew the time was coming near. Today was the day. I had thought long and hard on who was going to do this to Me. Since this was not a strike brand but a cautery pen job, the "stockman" had to just be able to follow a line. And since I knew a bit about branding from FetFest 2011 and later curiosity research, I felt comfortable handing the pen to a good friend and awesome sadomasochist, Leggatt. Leggatt and I have done some great things together, many of them very intense. Apparently our scene at a recent party caused some guests to leave in discomfort... so I've overheard, I frankly don't believe it, but it does make one think... We've had some great talks, and he's been there for Me since I've known him, even when I felt completely deserted. Leggatt, I am proud to call you My friend. :-) Thank you for doing this for Me, it means a whole lot!

This picture, taken right at the end of the ordeal

has Me showing all My love and appreciation.

        The process took some 15-20 minutes, which was amazing considering the hour it took to get the design on My skin. It was painful, but the issue was not really the pain (it was pretty bearable). It was the incredibly varying degrees that the pain could go through in the space of seconds. Combine that with some burning flesh scent, and the psychological mindfuck of OH-MY-GOD-SOMEBODY-IS-BURNING-DRAWINGS-INTO-MY-FLESH-HOLY-SHIT-I-CAN-SMELL-IT, and I can see that being pretty troubling in context of a scene. So I definitely have something new on My bucket list!

None of this photography is gratuitous.

So yeah. Not bad instead of porn, huh?

Approval taking a while...

I have been busy today, and even sent in all of My paperwork to My Clips4Sale Studio some hours ago, but they still have not approved Me. They did say the process would take up to 24h from sending in the correct paperwork, but I guess I was a bit overanticipating the whole thing, and figured it would be done by now.

No matter, these things happened. Now I have to run and finish getting ready for Asylum 13, because I'm getting picked up in less than an hour.

To correct the minor setback of having to post My videos tomorrow (which makes My compulsions whine), I leave you a video of a few small suspension tidbits from Asylum 13, the night Ego Likeness was playing and I beat a blonde twink purple. Enjoy!

A Return from Exile! With Great News and NSFW Pics!

Woohoo, I am alive. Indeed.

        This is going to be shorter than you'd think, because I cannot possibly compound everything that has recently happened, out in the wide world but also in My inner world... and there is still so much to do... But it would be nice to notify the world of what the fuck I'm up to. =^_^= Be advised that this post is going to bombard you with pictures of things to keep you entertained, and some are going to be pretty graphic. So read with caution. And maybe naked?

        As I said, I am not going to try to relate everything. Relating to the matter of events and going out, I have been quite busy running around, apparently now with a posse which a friend recently called a "harem." I must admit, I didn't find much objection to the comment. :-P I can't help it if I like beating beautiful men. And women. Well, I tend not to beat women as much as I tie them up. But you get the point. As I said, events have been fun, though very busy. I've met some wonderful people, and have seen and done some intense and transformatory stuff. Hello newcomers, I know a couple of you read My blog.

        On an earlier note, I do want to take a minute and say that I am very blessed to have some wonderful partners in this wild ride through this nutty voyage, and I am amazingly thankful that they have given so much of themselves to Me, both during our sometimes amazingly insane games, and outside of them. They are each such fascinating individuals, and I am lucky to count them among My friends. Truly, I am lucky to have some people who really mean a lot to Me in My life. I think it's an important thing, to be surrounded by positive influences. As a species, we have evolved thanks to our ability to exchange complex ideas. It's a fact: we need each other to survive. The past few weeks have brought Me much stress on several levels, and I am so glad to have had so many great people in My life, who have all been so good to Me. I tend to think every individual can bring something to an interaction, and the more experiences one is surrounded by, the more one can learn and grow as a person. And these past few weeks have been quite filled with learning and growth. So, big love to everyone I know out there. You all play a part.

        Bah. I've been a bit full of whimsy and musings due to having to say goodbye to a friend last Saturday. Well, "someone I know." I really liked the fellow, and I always wished I had gotten to take proper time to talk, share, and know each other better; so that we may become actual friends. However, he has now been called to work on the other side of the country, and I will likely not have that opportunity. This saddens Me a great deal. People's life paths change, sometimes radically and unexpectedly, and we sometimes miss some pretty amazing chances if we don't jump at them.

        Oh shit, too much text, picture time. I got shots back from Diabolique Ball 2012: Agony and Ecstasy! Although you did see the results of the whipping of Leggatt last November, here are are couple of "action shots" captured by BigShot and Ken Perna, respectively:

        Pain is such poetry in motion. I was really happy to see that these shots were captured. Yes, I do wish there had been a couple more. But if the Universe granted Me all of My wishes, I suppose I could wish to shit gold bricks and sing arias, and then we'd see a whole new side of My journeys.

        Spring is in the air indeed, as notable by activity at the dungeon, in My mailbox, and on My networks. I've even had another visit from My ass-destruction masochist... I should name him something. Cockhole? Alright. That will do. Although it doesn't really do justice to the masochist side of him, which you can observe in all it's glory on your right. It seems he was getting a little too excited for his own good. No worries, Doctor Brian has the cure for any and all wayward erections! They are called hypodermics. I particularly enjoyed giving Cockhole his very first taste of needle play... right on his throbbing cock. I also learned a whole new set of sounds that an adult man can make when in pain, so hooray for education!

        I could have put a few more in there, but seeing how there was an electro-plug inside of him and I had already brutalized him with other medical implements (all necessary for his health, I assure you), I decided three would be a fair introduction. And since I wasn't trying to earn a prize in crotch needlework, I decided to be a bit haphazard with it. Fun times!

        If you're out in Old City at some point, be sure to stop by the Kink Shoppe (126 Market St, Philadelphia, PA 19106) and check it out. This new store has just opened and has a good selection of reasonably priced toys, as well as custom St. Andrew's Cross and custom paddle options. The owner is friendly, and hopes to eventually carry more quality local items, as well as provide classes and resources to the community. Mistress Gwen and I were supposed go in today to discuss some ideas with him... perhaps tomorrow afternoon. Oh, by the way, this wicked cane you see in the adjacent picture is actually from them, and was a great bargain! I took a few swings with it that evening at the Bike Stop, and have been using it with some regularity since that night. Do stop in to look or pick up something. And follow their Twitter (@KinkShoppe)!

        Finally, I will close off My post with a bit of great news! I have finally finished the mammoth editing of the four opening fetish videos for My Clips4Sale Studio. This has been a mammoth endeavor for Me, mainly due to lack of production resources. My once-prosumer HD camera's transfer format is no longer in existence, and footage can only be transfered to select machines developed between 2006 and 2010. The computer I am currently working on, which is not My own, fits those specifications, but is not really built to be a video workstation. Add a lack of proper transfer media, an emergency camera operator, shady network transfers, and My general obsession with presentation, and I have been editing these videos almost daily for over three weeks. A lot of this has been rendering, trash dumping, transcoding, and just fucking about with video that threatens the very temperature of this computer.

        I have turned in My application for My Studio and still need to hand them copies of My identification and tax information. I don't want to hastily throw the preview clips on here without reference back to the full video, so I will have a post full of kinky, fetishy moving pictures for you in the next 36h. However, here are eight promotional stills directly lifted from the videos, two from each, for your perverted pleasures:

"Kiddo's First Checkup"

"Kiddo Gets Beaten Until He Cries"

"Bound Dean Cums"

"Dean is Teased... and Tortured"

        You can see the full preview sets by going to My XTube page, with no sign up required! This is also where I will upload My previews, so be sure to keep Me in your porn folder.  I hope to have seven preview clips uploaded by tomorrow night, and full-video downloadable options in the Studio in a variety of formats.

        A ginormous thanks to the people who have helped make this possible: Goddess Destiny, for letting Me use Her wondrous space to film; Switch Samantha, for being My trusty (albeit at times shaky) camerawoman; Dean and Kiddo, for subjecting themselves to these four scenes and being so patient with Me; to Valentine, for holding My fist back when I had intentions to drive it through the MacBook screen; and to My One for helping with with the logistics and legal aspects of it all. Thanks, y'all!