My Birthday Week is Going Swimmingly...

I'd like to think that I kicked off My birthday week with Philadelphia Leather Pride Night, and will be closing with a weekend of personal fun between events, as I share My birthday with My lover, one day apart.

That's right. His birthday is on Friday, while Mine is on Saturday. I wanted to stop in briefly for a couple of photos and ramblings. Last week ended with an email from San Diego from a boy just begging to be manipulated. I took his credit card shopping for a couple new things for Saturday's Philadelphia Leather Pride Night, where I manned a table for the upcoming Diabolique Ball 2014: Viva La Revolution! The second floor of Voyeur was turned into Der Karneval Diabolique, where I awaited with Goddess Thain to beat you up and tie you down! The stations were there to raise awareness for Diabolique, coming up on November 21st. I will be performing at this annual charity ball with Iris Enchanted to bring you a sexy look at the French Revolution... Marie Antoinette thinks she can sit in Versailles all day as the people of France starve... Well, we'll show her!

I also wanted to show off the following two books I picked up at the silent auction of PLPN, A first edition of Jon Jacobs, William D. Brame, and Gloria Brame's Different Loving: The World of Sexual Dominance and Submission as well as a first edition of The Encyclopedia of Unusual Sex Practices. Huzzah! I always approve of new books for My collection of fetish and BDSM reading. I've been considering adding new ones to My wishlist, such as this little gem. Snagged that one off someone's private wishlist... that's why you don't give your passwords to strangers.

I've been somewhat reclusive for the past month or so, and have been relatively occupied. I still have more to do. Changes, projects, classes. Starting in December, I will be running My Intro to Rope class every 3rd Saturday of the month at Kink Shoppe, seeing how there is a high demand for it. I really want to present at SEXx 2015, but have not handled a large room for a class as a presenter, and am not yet confident in My ability to lead a course on bondage for more than 15 people at a time. So perhaps next year. :-D

I am meeting with a potential new video boy this upcoming week. Should the meeting go well, hopefully new videos will be on the way. Since I have been busy with other things, and the few shoot I have scheduled cancelled, My Clips4Sale store has fallen into disrepair. Hopefully, some new clips will be put up soon. I have a lot of ideas, and since I'm a little bit strange, I was thinking of exploring some of the more interesting fetishes out there, from macrophilia to immurement fantasies. I'm still looking to edge a bound superhero in a lycra bodysuit and alien impregnate a twink, so if you'd be interested, dear reader, why not shoot Me a message, hm?

The next week is going to be pretty be interesting and fun. And why not make it extra fun for Me? It is My birthday, after all, and birthdays are supposed to be a good time. So why not go on and head over to My wishlists and take a look? I have one for all the playthings I want, one for books of all sorts, one for underwear, boots, and other clothes, and a random one, just because. So you are going to head over to one of them, and find something you think I could particularly use. Hell, there's even priority items. And you're going to have something sent to Me, perhaps with a little note wishing Me a happy birthday. It is after all, a momentous occasion.

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My November schedule can be found here.
My birthday is on Saturday (Wish Me a Happy Birthday).

Suspension Night is next Friday.

Diabolique Ball 2014 is next Friday.

The Diabolique Brunch is next Saturday.

The Philadelphia Professional Dominants Brunch is next Sunday.

Event Madness!

The brutal cold had caused Me to go into more or less of a hibernation state. I had some amazing fun at some recent events, but I'll keep that fun private for now (let us just say it involved blood and beatings, and I do not wish to scare My more innocent readers).

I will be attending five events in the next few weeks, and wanted to let you know about them! So, without further ado, here they are!

• Nachtmahr, the Austrian industrial project by Thomas Rainer will be performing at Asylum 13 this upcoming Thursday along with Ludovico Technique! Come see these awesome bands making the Earth quiver on Thursday March 27th, and come get your dark dance on! Tickets are $20 at the door, and $18 if you preorder on the website. I will be there administering beatings and suspending folk all evening. Reasons you should come? I said so. Thomas Rainer is also half of L'Ame Immortelle, one of My favorite bands of years past, and I want to see them perform again. So come to this special Asylum 13 event and support Austrian music!
• Twisted World: Villains and Vixens is a three-day gathering of 18+ creative folk right up in King of Prussia running through the weekend of March 28th! There is an open dungeon space, where I will be volunteering as well as spending the majority of My time! Tickets for this event can be purchased at the door (online sale has closed) for $50 (day pass) or $80 (weekend pass). It's gonna be awesome!
• Circus of Sin will be a small, carnival-like event held at the Bike Stop. Stop in for a ride on My spanking staps or other toys! On Friday, April 11th, make your way to the Bike Stop after the opening ceremonies and come have fun with local kinksters on the 3rd Floor! A $5 entrance gets you two rides!
• Leather Leadership Conference: This three day conference will be utilizing several venues all within a very short distance of each other. Come join in the City of Leatherly Love, April 11th-13th with a weekend filled with: Education, Entertainment, the Carter/Johnson Leather Library, amazing art exhibits, awards, book signings, a Fireside Chat with Doug O'Keefe, the Leather Archives and Museum, leather preservation intensive, bootblacking, a cigar social, a special DIY track, and so much more that we can’t fit it all in. Presenters will be offering in-sight into their history and hot button topics we all face, like ‘Accounting & Financial Responsibility for Fiduciaries’, ‘Consent and Abuse Our Scene’ and ‘How to Do the Right Kinky Thing: Ethical Principles for BDSM’. Tickets can be purchased online or at the door, with weekend long tickets starting at $119... but if you wait until April 1st, they go up, so get your now!
• Under One Flag: An Aviary and Black Phoenix Event: Since the LLC is in town in our usual Aviary space, we have teamed up with Black Phoenix for a joint event at a bigger venue, The Warehouse at EBE, to help welcome all of our visiting Leather folk! Tickets are $25 can be purchased here or at the Aviary table throughout the entire Conference. Tickets will not be sold at the door.

I always try to keep My events updated on My Upcoming Events page. Also, be sure to follow Me on Twitter, Facebook, or Vine if you want more day to day rantings, thoughts, and updates. For example, did you know that this past Friday was Suspension Night at the Kink Shoppe?

Or that Saturday night was full of needle and bloody fun?

Or maybe even that last night, I filmed a couple of hot gunge/wet and messy scenes with up and coming hot transman Lb. Cake Glitterbutch. I am also helping him with his own clipstore, so you'll be seeing a good deal of him very soon. For now, contend yourselves with this hot picture!

Also, because we have moved into Spring, I have changed My Specials for the season! I am still doing a special rate for one-hour spanking outcalls, but My current special at the dungeon is a reduced tribute for foot or boot worship sessions! For those who have a central interest in what's below My ankle, sessions come at the reduced rate of $150 per hour. So come and make sure they are pampered!

OutFest 2013 Photos!

The Aviary was this Saturday, and I was in a shitty headspace. However, I have Goddess Thain to thank for pulling Me out of it with some 50 needles. Pictures coming soon.

OutFest 2013 was possibly one of the funnest times I've had recently. I arrived at Bazaar on Quince around 12:45 or so, and immediately started pulling out toys for some public play.

I got some pretty kick-ass pictures:

Towards the end of the afternoon, I was approached by Swedish blogger Gustav Andersson (from TheModernNomad.com) who shyly asked Me for a bit of play and a suspension. He was incredibly handsome and very sweet, so I obliged. At the time he approached Me, the frame was in use by Logical Paradox, so I pre-rigged him and asked him what he was interested in. After some light discussion on his interests, I did a little bit of light sensation play, which quickly graduated into some nipple torture. Having talked of his mild CBT interests, we moved on to binding his hands above his head and behind his back. Then, I pulled out My viper tongue, a nasty cross between a singletail whip and a dragon tail. I mercilessly hit him below the belt, and when I had driven him to his limit... I made him count down his ten final hits. He did so in that incredibly sexy Swedish language of his. We took a short break, and then I strung him up in an inverted suspension, where I continued to play with My claws and knives.

Playing with Gustav was a wonderful experience. The intensity of the scene was way up there, and we were being watched by a decently sized crowd. I was blessed to have Jackman and Pajaro Libre around, as they took some incredible pictures:

There are 43 photos of My scene with Gustav in an album on My public Facebook account. You don't have to be friends with Me to see it, so go take a look.

After the scene, I did some aftercare (mega thanks to Emrys for bringing him a blanket and a Peanut Chew). I was taken by surprise with how subdued he was, and how he held on tightly to Me. Aftercare is a very important part of play for Me, and always strikes Me strangely when I am in a setting where it is needed but not provided. I cannot play properly with a bottom, and will often deny play altogether, if I cannot provide them with aftercare. I have noticed that aftercare is often forgotten in the BDSM community, and even more so in the gay BDSM community. This saddens Me a great deal, as it is an essential part of play. I cannot speak for him, but it seemed that Gustav was almost surprised that I took time out to make sure he was OK and safe after his scene. He even told Emrys, when she brought him blanket and carbs, that "you guys really know how to care for a sub." Yay for all the feels.

I had an amazing time. Thank you all of you who came to OutFest, and anyone who came to My station for a little fun. I will definitely be back at the next pride event representing some BDSM love!

On to some other things:

Tomorrow is Asylum 13. YAY! Expect to see some Vines and more rope fun! Be sure to come down to Mojo 13 if you want to hear some hot beats and have some kinky fun!

Friday is Suspension Night at the Kink Shoppe! This is a great chance to come watch and/or experience rope suspension in a friendly, public environment. I will be there all night, as I tend to be, so be sure to come on up and talk to Me. Apparently, a secret source tells Me there will be cookies.

Next week is when you really want to be available, though...

• Friday, October 25th, I am teaching Picking Up the Ropes, My introductory class to rope bondage. 
• The next day, Saturday 26th, is the Halloween Madness Masquerade Ball down at Mojo 13 again. There will be some awesome music, including Aesthetic Perfection, Nekronet, Die Sektor, Venal Flesh, and other wild industrial craziness. Come up and check out My awesome Halloween costume!
• Finally, Sunday 27th, I will be back at the Kink Shoppe to teach My intermediate rope bondage class, From Harness to Hogtie. Come learn how to get kinky with some rope!

The links to the three events above lead to pages where you can read more about them and purchase advance tickets. Remember, you can always check what My upcoming events are on the Upcoming Events page of My website, or on My FetLife group!

The Part You Throw Away

Apologies to those of you who have been worried. My life has gone completely upside down in the past week or so.

I pondered how to write something that would be clear, concise, and express exactly what I feel while protecting Me and Mine. I have not come up with a proper way of doing so.

In the past week, I have been physically assaulted as well as extorted  for over $1700 by My psychotic ex-roommate. Now, fairly, I did owe him some $850. However, the OTHER $850 come from the inability of this individual to take no for an answer.

I admit it, I stuck My dick in crazy. Funny, isn't it? I champion not sticking your dick in psychos, yet that is exactly what I did. And when I told psycho that I was not interested in him in a romantic sense, that's when shit started going down.

It all started with a phone call last Saturday, when attending a private event. Truly, the discomfort had started earlier in the week, but that's when I was faced with an ultimatum. One that I was fine with, but that forced Me to put a deadline down on monies owed. I was confident that I could come to an agreement with this crazy motherfucker. Turns out that when things got physical between us and he threatened My livelihood, as well as the life of one of My play partners and My One, I knew I had to leave, even if I didn't have an immediate place to go.

And that´s what I did. The entire situation was not only becoming psychologically and physically dangerous, but was simply getting worse by the second. I left without knowing where I would sleep that night. So right now, I am in an extremely twisted situation. I am still taking sessions, although not same-day appointments until further notice. Additionally, I will not be updating this blog or My profiles much in the next couple of weeks, perhaps even a month. I have given My website an update, including the events I will be attending, as well as My seasonal specials, but that will likely be how it remains for the rest of the month.

I will be doing bondage demos all day on July 6th, during Old City District's Inside Out. Come enjoy yourself throughout the day, and then join Me at 4:30 PM for a mini workshop: Bedroom Rope: Bondage for Sex. I will also be be joined by Echo, of EchosFire.com, who will be doing fire massage demonstrations. He will also be running his own workshop, "Art of the Fire Massage" at 7 PM.

Be sure to stop by and make Me smile, I need it.

Here are a few pointers to close things off:

1.) Don't stick your dick in crazy, much less codependent, drug-addicted crazy.
2.) When offered things of any sort, refuse them. Before you know it, you're running a tab you were unaware of.
3.) Don't stick your dick in crazy.
4.) Remember Micah 7:5 - Trust ye not in a friend, put ye not confidence in a guide: keep the doors of thy mouth from her that lieth in thy bosom.
5.) Don't stick your dick in crazy.
6.) Never forget when your loved ones are threatened. When they are, keep that close to your heart, even if your vengeance takes years to exact. Nobody touches what is Mine and gets away with it. Not for long, anyway. Tee hee!
7.) Don´t stick your dick in crazy.
8.) When the person you live with calls you an amoral sociopathic heathen, it's time to go. If they've told you that they are sending friends to drive-by your home every hour, you are too late.
9.) Don't stick your dick in crazy!!

And because no post is complete without at least a pretty picture, here is one of a recent Asylum 13. The handsome young man on the right is Echo, in fact. As of late, he's been coming to events with Me and offering his service (since I'm usually running around like a headless chicken). If you see us out together, be sure to chat him up about his excellent fire massage services! Seriously, the fellow is talented.

PS: Regarding My situation, anyone who asks Me face to face will be provided with full description and stats if they wish, to avoid the crazy fucker I just left. Trust Me, it's way easier to fall for his bullshit than you'd think. I'm the second person he's done this to in the past couple months. The first had to file a police report, and from what I understand, still does not have her property back.

Class Success! Computer Fail! Random Cuntslinging!

So guess who had a very successful rope class? That's right, I did! Thanks to all who attended. I will definitely now do a 202 class for those who attended and those wishing to learn techniques above elementary rope. Here are a couple of pictures:

As My demo, I used the lovely and lithe Katts who was a wonderful sport, even when I teased him a bit. He did very good, and I am quite proud of him. We also discussed video work together and both him and his girlfriend seemed game, so keep your eye out for some hot clips featuring a lot of beating mixed with a good bit of this:

I'm such a horrible tease. And I'm going to fuck that beautiful skinny straight boy up. Look, doesn't My collar already look perfect on him?

By the way, if you've not gone either to the First Friday demo or the rope class, you are missing out. In fact, since Kink Shoppe is not too far from Me, I'm often there just hanging out and playing with Myself a good deal. I mean, BY Myself, excuse Me. In fact, I recently did a little compilation on YouTube of different people's Vine videos which I found and put together.

As you can see, you've been missing a lot of things.

Just last night, I went to the Bike Stop, where a gentleman was celebrating his 31st birthday. Because I always have My toys with Me when I go out, I gave him a sound birthday beating. However, I went past thirty-one, because the little painslut was really loving it. After 45, I realized that another few hits might have been more than he bargained for in the morning, so I did stop. I did have a great amount of fun though, and was complimented by a few nice gentlemen on My lovely form.

It did remind Me of something that I have mentioned repeatedly, although most FetLifers know this already: if I have not felt it first, I do not dish it. I will always bottom at least once to what I top with.

In fact, on very rare occasions, when things aren't going very well for Me in the great turmoil that is My brainmeats, I will seek peace and quietude by taking pain, usually in an unusual situation or setting. This is exactly what I did on Thursday at Asylum 13, when I suspended Myself upside down and blindfolded, and let Gabriel Drax, organizer and grand pasha of flogging, beat Me with his particularly nasty dragontail. The results, as can be seen on the left, were harsh (at least for Me, who does not enjoy pain per se). But what was nice was the bit of mental peace that followed. See? This is exactly what happens when you don't follow Me around: I get half naked and writhe about like sandtrout, and you have no clue until it's too late. Oh well.

So what has My brainmeats in turmoil? A couple things. First, the computer I have been using since My own computer exploded is going back to its rightful owner. I have been using it for four months now, and it has served Me very well, but all good things must come to an end.

I do own two other computers, so I will still be posting, booking sessions, and making Myself available regularly to answer questions and fill the internet with My babble, but that is not the issue:

The camera I use to film My Carnaval Décadent videos, a Sony HVR-A1U, is not compatible with any of My current computers. Additionally, newer Macs (I edit using Final Cut Pro X and Adobe AfterEffects) do not have a proper 6-conductor Firewire alpha port to transfer My footage. To top it off, adapter cables do not work with this precise camera model. So I either need a new solid-state camera, or a Mac that still has 6-conductor alpha ports (which, if I am correct, are pre-2010). I'm not in a position right now to purchase either of those things, because quite frankly, bills need to be paid.

In short, it looks like My fetish pornography empire is not going to be as prolific as I thought. It's always one step forward and two steps back. I'm getting really fucking sick of all this bullshit which interrupts My groove.

Let's also add to that issue the fact that some pretty pernicious rumors have been started about Me, which are causing Me strife and calling My morality and motives in question. So I'll speak to two people right now publicly:

To Individual Number One: If someone claims I said something, the correct action to do is to directly come to Me an confront Me like an adult. I have no interest in lying to anyone, as that take away from My well-known neutrality. It's what I have based My entire reputation on, so trust, it's not going to shift any time soon. Also, I have quite the way with words, and those who have taken even five minutes of their lives to know Me can easily distinguish things I say from things others claim I say. I also have no interest in shitting where I eat, by the way.

This next bit is to Individual Number Two, and had no bearing on what I said to Number One: If you decide that you are going to be a negative force trying to destroy Me (either because you do not like Me or are jealous of Me), be assured that I will find you. And I will ruin every bit of your life. Your very name will be a synonym for distrust, unfaithfulness, and damage; and I will make it My personal pleasure to make sure that your very existence as an agent of anything good is destroyed, even across oceans. And if you don't think that can happen, try Me, bitch.

Yelan abo taareesak to a good portion of the scene, by the way. Before speaking, be sure that My eyes and ears are not around. It's the least you can do before digging your own grave.

I had a lovely chat with Goddess Cleo earlier today, and while I stated I did not wish to return to England just yet, I'm now really considering it: I miss London a great deal. Now that was a place where people were honest and upfront, and where social standing was based purely on skill and knowledge, not who you rub elbows with or gossip about.

Now if you will excuse Me, I have a party to get ready for and attend.

Event Recap and Upcoming Rope Class

What a wondrous week it all was. So here we demonstrate!

Asylum 13 saw Me hand over My suspension point to another rigger last Thursday. I had had a very busy day, one that also took a bit of a mental toll on Me, so I chose to not suspend people that evening, and chose to spend it with Katts, beautiful masochist and future star in one of My fetish films (I'd love a full-length with him). Pictures of said kink debauchery will be shown here when the photographers publish their next set of Asylum photos on Facebook. You should really be a fan of Asylum 13 of Facebook if you're not. That way, you could see all of them right when they come out!

I was less than pleased when First Friday turned to be an extremely rainy endeavor. I was however, overjoyed to see such a wonderful turnout of people braving the rain, as well as several volunteers. Thank you to Mistress Gwen Menace, and all who came to make this possible. Here's a very short video and a couple pictures:

Saturday night was The Aviary, and interestingly enough, I was not My usual swamped and scattered self. I had a great time with a newcomer to BDSM who had heard of Me and had come by to the event a couple of times before. I tied him up to the pillory and went to town... and I think even he will tell you it was quite a thrill.

Sunday was Philly Pride, and although I originally intended to march with the TNG group, My plans were disrupted by Kiddo and his partner, SF, who called Me an asked Me to come hang out with them. I must say, it was a most welcome distraction! Honestly, between hanging out with iCandy go-gos and playing with these two sexy maso-boys... well, I think the choice is simple.

I tied both of the boys together and has them use their strength to support each other through some sensory play and some corporal fun. It was very intense, particularly for Kiddo, and it lead to some great talk between them later during the day. See? I'm like therapy. Therapy that spreads your ass cheeks, flogs your back, and clamps your nipples.



I did make a brief stop in the Bike Stop for a drink on Sunday, but it was very brief. Last night, however, I went to meet a footslave early in the evening. We had a great chat. He bought Me a drink, and since I had been through a few busy days, I had him massage My feet in the middle of the bar. He did quite well. However, he did have to leave after a short while... but surprise surprise, I must be popular: he was quickly replaced by another boy who bought Me another drink, and quickly took over. This new boy however, showed a little less decorum, and found himself shirtless on the floor of the bar, one of My size 12W in his mouth, and the other in his hand. Hell, he was even sweet enough to lay back on the floor when I needed to get up, making a very effective trampling board.

Since he was a private fellow, I did not attempt to capture much on camera, but I got one pretty good picture of him rubbing one of My feet, while I teased him with the other. He was a handsome masochist, full of potential. His own life has led him a bit astray, but I hope his experience with Me last night will make him reconsider many of the choices he has taken, and will help him return to the place where he belongs, at a Dominant's feet. Yes, I'm totally expecting he is reading this, and will consider taking a new look at his life and where he wants to be. It's been missing for over 20 years, boy... don't you think it's time?

Finally, here is a VERY IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT:

Did you miss the introductory rope class I taught in April? Then you can come and take the same class (with some minor tweaks here and there) this upcoming Sunday at the Kink Shoppe! You can purchase the tickets online, and even let us know if you're attending on Facebook or FetLife!

The class will be on Sunday, June 16th 2013, from the hours of 7 PM to 9 PM. Tickets are priced at $25 if you get them in advance ($20 for seniors/students with ID or $45 for couples), and $30 on the day of. However, a little birdie told Me that if you are signed up to the Kink Shoppe e-mail newsletter, you get $5 off either price!

Again, it is highly suggested that you bring some rope, ideally one 30ft length as well as two 15ft lengths. However, there will be some practice rope available, and the store will be stocked with their own supply if you want to buy some. Their prices are excellent, and any purchase made on the day of the workshop will get you 10% off when you show your ticket (one-time use).

Come support Me and learn the foundations that will lead you down the path of rope. I will also be hanging around until closing after the course, so it's a good chance to chat Me up!

I am also soon going to be creating the follow-up classes, for those who want to learn the next level. Thinking the second course will be called "The Ladder, the Harness, and the Dragonfly: Using What You Know." Because I like fancy verbiage.

Asylum 13, Aviary, and Progress on Pr0n!

All is quiet. Well, not really, but I am already way to talky. So I'll attempt to keep this post shorter than the unabridged version of Moby Dick.

Asylum 13, as usual, an absolute delight. Here are some recent pictures as well as a new video on YouTube that I can't be bothered to embed:

 

On left, getting some drinks into the birthday girl. On right, upside down flying with Arwen.

Katts is a sexy pony... who wants to see him get beaten?

Speaking of YouTube, have you seen My account lately? You might have missed the recent additions to it of a short clip of My brand being done as well as another shortie of Me goofing off while cleaning dildos and buttplugs. I am trying to dispel this nasty rumor that I don't have a sense of humor. I do have a sense of humor, it just tends to be at the expense of others.

        xHamster has finally approved Me as a content producer, so please update your bookmarks from My old xTube account to this new xHamster account, which I will be filling in these next few days. I have also update most of the website to reflect both My new video sites. Any other Studio wanting to do a banner exchange can do so by e-mailing Me their banner and taking one off My site. If you'd rather the banner link feature primarily My Studio as opposed to My general site, just save this one instead (be sure to save the full sized version):

So all the stuff I have been stressing about has been slowly coming together. Perhaps I need not be so impatient. You know what I need? I back massage and a proper drink. Any takers? I've been a busy recluse, perhaps I will go to the Bike Stop a couple of times this week.

Recently, I have come across exceptional service. For example, I had a wondrous time at the Aviary last Saturday with Jynx. I had known and played with him before, but it's only lately that I've taken particular interest. I find him to be quite the adept when it comes to service, and I was quite glad to have him with Me for the evening. He keeps a smile on My face. As one can see by this picture, we had a pretty intense scene together involving claws, cups, and a variety of corporal implements.

As usual, I have to remind some people that the s-types I play on a personal level with all have a strong masochistic streak, and a high tolerance for what I can dish out. Clearly I have a lower range I can play in, and I don't expect newcomers or non-masochists to be able to handle this type of play. But you are reading My blog, which is about My day-to-day life and play. I don't always pull out a camera in session, so a lot of what you will see here includes some of My more intense personal scenes. If you find that My is play batshit insane, you can opt for something a little less "shocking." I am not particularly extreme.

        In fact, I had what one would consider a much tamer scene the very next night with a good friend, Echo of Echo's Fire. We had a great time with some bondage, breath control, light knife play, and wax. I took an incidental picture or two, and since he's quite a lovely-bodied boy, I figure I'd share. Pretty things should be displayed, Methinks. I just have a strange concept of them sometimes! And so I leave you with a pic of this pretty thing, and I think we can both agree on that.

My Clips4Sale Studio is Open!

        It is with no pride or joy that I announce that My Clips4Sale store is open. Please direct your shiny browsers to Carnaval Décadent, My brand spanking new page of perversions.

        As I had mentioned before here, on other networks, and live, the opening of this page was supposed to be a BIG deal for Me. I was going to bombard the web with preview videos, shake things up on social networks, blah blah blah... However, dealing with many of these sites has been a complete nightmare, to such an extent that I feel no happiness at having completed it, and am no longer interested in the fanfare.

        Clips4Sale is a ridiculously simple service to use, but sometimes lacks a bit of honesty when it comes to answering questions directly. Little things I wish I had known before putting Myself out there. But C4S has been great as a server. My major issue these past few days has been with xTube. After uploading all of My preview clips onto My xTube page, My account was shut down without warning or explanation (hmm, sounds like Tumblr to Me). After hounding them like an animal, I finally got an answer as to why. I quote:

"You are not allowed to circulate external URLs anywhere on this site. Although Xtube does provide free content for our users, Xtube is not a free advertising platform for competitors' websites. 

If you'd like to reinstate your account then please read and agree to comply to the terms of use of the site."

        I find that to be incredibly humorous, seeing how xTube is mostly comprised of advertisement and preview videos for major porn companies, all which link out to other websites. That, and the fact that their Terms of Use, which I have read carefully, do not openly mention such a rule, but leave it purposefully unclear. I do not have the time to fight or to argue with them, and so, I have sent them a letter asking them to please remove My account, as I have no interest in working with a company that favors the big producers over independent pornographers.

        I have sent a message to xHamster, who not only support independent producers, but also have an affiliates program. They have not gotten back to Me yet. Hopefully they will do so soon enough.

        Until then, I invite you to check out the folder on My Google Drive, and download any preview video you want. Spread them, send them, share them, upload them... I really do not care. Whenever I have them on a real porn server, I will announce it.

        The Gizmo card restriction should be lifted in a week or two. If you are so inclined to purchase any clips, I would appreciate if you did so after the fact, as Gizmo is notoriously slow. Thanks.

Approval taking a while...

I have been busy today, and even sent in all of My paperwork to My Clips4Sale Studio some hours ago, but they still have not approved Me. They did say the process would take up to 24h from sending in the correct paperwork, but I guess I was a bit overanticipating the whole thing, and figured it would be done by now.

No matter, these things happened. Now I have to run and finish getting ready for Asylum 13, because I'm getting picked up in less than an hour.

To correct the minor setback of having to post My videos tomorrow (which makes My compulsions whine), I leave you a video of a few small suspension tidbits from Asylum 13, the night Ego Likeness was playing and I beat a blonde twink purple. Enjoy!

A Return from Exile! With Great News and NSFW Pics!

Woohoo, I am alive. Indeed.

        This is going to be shorter than you'd think, because I cannot possibly compound everything that has recently happened, out in the wide world but also in My inner world... and there is still so much to do... But it would be nice to notify the world of what the fuck I'm up to. =^_^= Be advised that this post is going to bombard you with pictures of things to keep you entertained, and some are going to be pretty graphic. So read with caution. And maybe naked?

        As I said, I am not going to try to relate everything. Relating to the matter of events and going out, I have been quite busy running around, apparently now with a posse which a friend recently called a "harem." I must admit, I didn't find much objection to the comment. :-P I can't help it if I like beating beautiful men. And women. Well, I tend not to beat women as much as I tie them up. But you get the point. As I said, events have been fun, though very busy. I've met some wonderful people, and have seen and done some intense and transformatory stuff. Hello newcomers, I know a couple of you read My blog.

        On an earlier note, I do want to take a minute and say that I am very blessed to have some wonderful partners in this wild ride through this nutty voyage, and I am amazingly thankful that they have given so much of themselves to Me, both during our sometimes amazingly insane games, and outside of them. They are each such fascinating individuals, and I am lucky to count them among My friends. Truly, I am lucky to have some people who really mean a lot to Me in My life. I think it's an important thing, to be surrounded by positive influences. As a species, we have evolved thanks to our ability to exchange complex ideas. It's a fact: we need each other to survive. The past few weeks have brought Me much stress on several levels, and I am so glad to have had so many great people in My life, who have all been so good to Me. I tend to think every individual can bring something to an interaction, and the more experiences one is surrounded by, the more one can learn and grow as a person. And these past few weeks have been quite filled with learning and growth. So, big love to everyone I know out there. You all play a part.

        Bah. I've been a bit full of whimsy and musings due to having to say goodbye to a friend last Saturday. Well, "someone I know." I really liked the fellow, and I always wished I had gotten to take proper time to talk, share, and know each other better; so that we may become actual friends. However, he has now been called to work on the other side of the country, and I will likely not have that opportunity. This saddens Me a great deal. People's life paths change, sometimes radically and unexpectedly, and we sometimes miss some pretty amazing chances if we don't jump at them.

        Oh shit, too much text, picture time. I got shots back from Diabolique Ball 2012: Agony and Ecstasy! Although you did see the results of the whipping of Leggatt last November, here are are couple of "action shots" captured by BigShot and Ken Perna, respectively:

        Pain is such poetry in motion. I was really happy to see that these shots were captured. Yes, I do wish there had been a couple more. But if the Universe granted Me all of My wishes, I suppose I could wish to shit gold bricks and sing arias, and then we'd see a whole new side of My journeys.

        Spring is in the air indeed, as notable by activity at the dungeon, in My mailbox, and on My networks. I've even had another visit from My ass-destruction masochist... I should name him something. Cockhole? Alright. That will do. Although it doesn't really do justice to the masochist side of him, which you can observe in all it's glory on your right. It seems he was getting a little too excited for his own good. No worries, Doctor Brian has the cure for any and all wayward erections! They are called hypodermics. I particularly enjoyed giving Cockhole his very first taste of needle play... right on his throbbing cock. I also learned a whole new set of sounds that an adult man can make when in pain, so hooray for education!

        I could have put a few more in there, but seeing how there was an electro-plug inside of him and I had already brutalized him with other medical implements (all necessary for his health, I assure you), I decided three would be a fair introduction. And since I wasn't trying to earn a prize in crotch needlework, I decided to be a bit haphazard with it. Fun times!

        If you're out in Old City at some point, be sure to stop by the Kink Shoppe (126 Market St, Philadelphia, PA 19106) and check it out. This new store has just opened and has a good selection of reasonably priced toys, as well as custom St. Andrew's Cross and custom paddle options. The owner is friendly, and hopes to eventually carry more quality local items, as well as provide classes and resources to the community. Mistress Gwen and I were supposed go in today to discuss some ideas with him... perhaps tomorrow afternoon. Oh, by the way, this wicked cane you see in the adjacent picture is actually from them, and was a great bargain! I took a few swings with it that evening at the Bike Stop, and have been using it with some regularity since that night. Do stop in to look or pick up something. And follow their Twitter (@KinkShoppe)!

        Finally, I will close off My post with a bit of great news! I have finally finished the mammoth editing of the four opening fetish videos for My Clips4Sale Studio. This has been a mammoth endeavor for Me, mainly due to lack of production resources. My once-prosumer HD camera's transfer format is no longer in existence, and footage can only be transfered to select machines developed between 2006 and 2010. The computer I am currently working on, which is not My own, fits those specifications, but is not really built to be a video workstation. Add a lack of proper transfer media, an emergency camera operator, shady network transfers, and My general obsession with presentation, and I have been editing these videos almost daily for over three weeks. A lot of this has been rendering, trash dumping, transcoding, and just fucking about with video that threatens the very temperature of this computer.

        I have turned in My application for My Studio and still need to hand them copies of My identification and tax information. I don't want to hastily throw the preview clips on here without reference back to the full video, so I will have a post full of kinky, fetishy moving pictures for you in the next 36h. However, here are eight promotional stills directly lifted from the videos, two from each, for your perverted pleasures:

"Kiddo's First Checkup"

"Kiddo Gets Beaten Until He Cries"

"Bound Dean Cums"

"Dean is Teased... and Tortured"

        You can see the full preview sets by going to My XTube page, with no sign up required! This is also where I will upload My previews, so be sure to keep Me in your porn folder.  I hope to have seven preview clips uploaded by tomorrow night, and full-video downloadable options in the Studio in a variety of formats.

        A ginormous thanks to the people who have helped make this possible: Goddess Destiny, for letting Me use Her wondrous space to film; Switch Samantha, for being My trusty (albeit at times shaky) camerawoman; Dean and Kiddo, for subjecting themselves to these four scenes and being so patient with Me; to Valentine, for holding My fist back when I had intentions to drive it through the MacBook screen; and to My One for helping with with the logistics and legal aspects of it all. Thanks, y'all!

You know...

... instead of posting every other post mentioning how hectic My week has been, how about we just assume that I am constantly busy, hm? I should also post when less than ten things have happened to Me, as I know I am going to forget stuff. Like in this woefully incomplete post.

Last Aviary was amazing, by the way. I had an incredible time, and was even tended to by a wonderful visitor, who helped Me not completely lose My mind. You know who you are... thank you!

Asylum 13's Heartbroken Hellentine Kinkster's Ball was wonderful. I got to do some pretty amazing rigging, and got to chat with Vas Kallas, founder and singer of Hanzel und Gretyl, the industrial metal band, still rocking it twenty years later. And as usual, Arwen flew like an angel of Death:

Since another A-13 has passed since then, I might as well say that it kicked a lot of ass as well. If you had been there last week, you would have seen Me suspending Myself upside down:

And you would have also seen a close to the ground first time suspension as well:

By the way, while I am at it, almost all of the wonderful photos that are posted here with the Asylum 13 logo are credited to the great Rhino Photography. If you seek some hot, fresh portraiture or event photography, do check them out!

When not at events, I've been very busy between sessions, videos, photographs, and My personal play. I wanted to note one specific thing that happened this Saturday which was amazing: I had an awesome interrogation scene at a private party which involved some 45 minutes of loud crying from My bottom. I am particularly happy this week!

By the way, pup Loki has been distracting Me on the computer throughout this entire post, and I am going to kick his ass whenever I see him. You've been warned, mutt!

PS: I'll be uploading some more A-13 videos as they come along. Do keep checking My YouTube channel for updates.

YouTube Uploads!

Here's three brand spanking new YouTube videos of suspensions. Because I am still kind of "the rope guy" at My core, in My black little heart.

The first two are short videos of two young ladies spinning at Asylum 13, where I can be found tying up dancers and spinning them like a madman for your entertainment every Thursday! Just 20 minutes south of Philadelphia, it's a great chance to meet Me and give a go at your first flight!

The third video is of pup Wolfy being suspended for the first time, and had an artsy look to it (because I can't put naked people on YouTube and I want to preserve his privacy).

Enjoy!

Hectic Hellweek Brings Updates!

It has been a bit of a hellweek in My personal life, but things are working out, and I can get back to more or less a regular schedule. I have put up a few new pictures on My DeviantART account, My most recent favorite being this one of My friend Harlot:

I also spent a day last week chatting and playing with Leggatt. We managed to go through a few firsts with him, and we had a wonderful time. Here's a great shot of him as a sexy mummy.

I'm probably going to keep the shots I got of him getting suspended and later tortured and lynched to Myself. Hell, if I put everything up here, then there's no mystery anymore! I already think I am quite candid and generous with My time to make sure My readers and fans are kept informed.

I'll soon be posting some clips and videos up on My YouTube channel to prepare for the opening of My Clips4Sale store, which I assure you will be filled with some very hot stuff! I've been meeting with a couple of people who are also interested in doing some professional shoots, both photo and video, so things are definitely stepping up a bit!

My most exciting news and update is that I am now a performer at Asylum 13, Delaware's only 21+ kinky alternative dance party! I will be at Mojo 13 (1706 Philadelphia Pike, Wilmington, DE 19809) every Thursday doing rope suspensions and other visual kinkiness all evening. In fact, if you look at My aforementioned YouTube channel, you can see a video called "Shibari Aerial Dancing Rig" which was the very first time I attended the event, sometime in late May 2012. This event is only 20 minutes away from Philadelphia, and is a great way to come out and listen to some awesome industrial and metal music among a great kink-friendly crowd. The night is focused on fun and dance, so perfect for those who are curious about kink, but not ready to go to a full blown play party. And although I'm rigging all night, it's also a good place to come chat!

While I'm on the subject of play parties, I will be attending the Aviary tonight. As usual, I will be dungeon monitoring for a portion of the evening, and spending the rest of it socializing and beating people. My time will be limited for the evening though, as I already have plans of evil with a couple of boys, but I always take the time to have a chat with respectful visitors. Come out and get a spanking!

This week has been busy with a lot I didn't share here, both personal and kinky. I will likely be on the computer all day tomorrow Sunday completely updating all of My social networks and giving My own website a massive update. I will not be taking any out-calls.

Next week is Valentine's Day! I will be at Asylum 13 all evening for the Heartbroken Hellentine Kinkster's Ball! Be sure to come down, as the kick-ass band Hanzel und Gretyl will be there, and it is sure to be a wicked fun time! However, we can't all be metalhead kinksters, so if you find that you are not going to be attending, but still want Me to feel your love, you can always get Me a little V-Day trinket that will make Me smile!

Straight and bisexual male readers will enjoy the following awesome piece about boot worship posted by the wonderful Boots LS. It gives great insight packaged in a sexy true story. Ladies and gentlemen... A Boot-Licking Psychology.

Happy 2013!

My goodness, what a crazy few days it has been. I shall recount briefly. But first, some pictures of a little of My personal time. These are here because I've been foraying into mixing My BDSM with photography. As most of you know, I love taking pictures of stuff, and am a fan of crazy effects. But every now and then, I get a really good picture. These are the ones I strive for. I like for moments to be commemorated with an epic image, and so I'm always trying. And I got a few right here.

First, a picture of the very awesome room I taught a waterboarding in a couple of days ago.

If you look closely, you can even see the handsome young soldier, strapped down to the table and awaiting torture. But I digress. I mostly wanted to squeal in delight at how awesome this photograph came out. Next up is another very cool shot I got from play with an awesome puppy, Wolfy.

I generally have been having My share of kinky fun! The year culminated in a few awesome points. I showed at a great kinky New Year's party with Wolfy as My guest. It was his first major BDSM event, and I agreed to take him to it and be a provisional handler for the evening. Now, as most of you know, I do not get into petplay at all. This is due to the fact that, coming into kink and BDSM from the gay community, there is an extreme sexualization of it that is very uncomfortable for Me. I can appreciate having a pet. But it it difficult for Me to enter a mindset of fully treating someone as a pet, while still appreciating the fact that they may be physically attractive. In short, I can't think "I have a hot dog!" You're either a dog, or you're hot. However, Wolfy approaches his inner pet from a completely psychological point of view, completely disregarding the aspects of it that make Me so uncomfortable. We have extremely similar viewpoints regarding sex and BDSM, and completely incompatible sexual dynamic while retaining good D/s, so I thought it would be a fantastic way to explore pet play. So we agreed to mild D/s, and attended the party together. We even got a couple of photos!

The formatting of this blogging service really is shit. Dammit. Anyway, face was blurred to protect his privacy, upon request.

Later on, I got into a performance with Leggatt which culminated in twelve needles holding twelve sparklers, surrounding the new year, which I carved with a knife. The little feather trio (also needled in) didn't remain in place exactly how I wanted it, but still looked bitching. 

Ladies and gentlemen, New Year's Eve, Sir Brian Style:

I wrapped 2012 up with a bang (or maybe a few minor stab wounds and some flames), and I am sure that 2013 holds lots of new surprises in store for Me! And it holds surprises for you, dear reader and visitor, including the opening of My Clips4Sale store, some YouTube videos, and an educational series I'm concepting at the moment. And as always, new photos!

I hope you all had a wonderful time as well, and I wish everyone out there a Happy New Year!